Pressure

I've been feeling a lot of pressure in my life lately....
...to be a good wife
...to be a good mom
...to be a good friend
...to be a good employee
...a good cook
...a good blogger
...a good friend
...a good pet owner
...exercise
...eat right
...clean
...e-mail
...appreciate
...
...and just about everything else that makes up a day of busy, working wife and mom.

I'm overwhelmed. I want to stay in bed. I want to cry, well, I do cry, all the time. I cried when they handed me the birthday cake for AJ's birthday at the grocery store. Why didn't I feel like making my child a cake?

I need to take some steps to relieve the pressure. Like popping a zit! So, step one is turning off the comments on this blog. I love blogging. I don't love checking to see if anyone has commented. Opening my e-mail to see not many have. I blog for my family and friends...for myself. It's not a popularity contest, it's supposed to be therapy. I'm turning it off and enabling the ability to see my e-mail in my profile. Please feel free to send me one, I read them and would love to respond to yours.

Another step is to spend more time sitting and playing and talking to my girls. Stop rushing them from task to task....dinner....violin....bath....reading....bed....hup to!

I want to get up in the morning and walk instead of at night. I want to prepare a menu of meals on Sunday. I want to scrapbook. I want to plant flowers. I want to hang curtains in the kids rooms (I bought some, they are in their packages). I want to buy a new camera. I'll get all of these things done...just not today.

Today I am going to turn the comments off on my blog, for now, forever, who knows. Love to you all! Please send easy recipes and housekeepers' phone numbers.